The title explains some part, but not all. A while ago, we had our culminating activity. It was a success although our food wasn't enough for the visitors. Ubos lahat. K, nuff. I'm not supposed to be ranting about that "project". But in fairness, my being "cam-shy" was a little bit lessen, thanks to that activity.
Okay. Moving on to the real purpose of blogging about this post -- I feel a little sorry. For things. For me, in particular.
I was feeling a bit unhappy these past few days, and even I myself don't know why. Ewan eh. DI ko rin magets, sa tutuusin. Pretty weird, huh? Anyway, I cried, kanina. Promise. Hanggang ngayon, masakit pa rin ang mga mata ko. Nag-se-senti ako kanina. I admit. And it's because of this guy right here. Oh, you've seen him already? Browse through the pictures more. Seems to be like a 10 year-old kid, right? Fine, an 11 year-old will do. But take note, he's 14. I must tell you, that's how bad my taste for boys is.
He's the one that I have been talking about -- the one who congratulated me, who texted me quotes, who went to my birthday invitation, and for some reason, who seemed to like me too, even just for a little bit. I am not a feeler. I just have this slight sensation that he likes me too. Kahit konti, alam kong meron. Torpe lang siguro siya. Well, sana nga.
Ano ba to? Diba dapat puppy love lang to? E bakit parang mas masahol pa tong nararamdaman ko ngayon sa puppy love?
I really can't explain the feeling that I am feeling right now. Mixed emotions. Siguro, may pagka-worried, angry, sad, happy, kilig, ay ewan!
Worried in a sense na baka wala. Na baka kaya niya lang yon ginagawa kasi ala lang. At ayoko ng ganon kasi parang pinaasa lang ako sa wala.
Angry dahil naiinis ako sa sarili ko dahil, somewhat.. nagseselos ako for no reason yet. Naman, my ex-best friend. Baka may feelings din yung ex-best friend ko para sa kanya.
Sad coz he can't admit his feelings for me ng harap-harapan.
Happy & kilig. Well, because the look that he's giving me every day, if you were at my position, will totally make you kilig too. Imagine naman, ang tagal tumingin sakin tapos slow-mo pa. Ano yon? Tapos pag biglang napatingin ako, parang mag-iiba yung eye direction. Weird, pero nahuli kita.
ANG GULO MO. ANG GULO KO. SANA HINDI NALANG KITA NAKILALA PARA HINDI KO TO KAILANGANG MARAMDAMAN. ANG SAKIT. SOBRA.
Labels: highschool drama, puppy love turning into real love, ramblings, rants